By Charles Towne
“O God!” I cried, and that was all. But what then, are the prayers of the entire universe more than an expansion of that one cry? It is not what God can give us, but God that we want.”
All my life I have prayed to get things from God, but now I pray to get God.
O loving God, dear heavenly father, there is nothing I desire more than to be close to you, and yet, out of my gross ignorance, out of my stubbornness, and my pride, so often I have chosen to walk alone.
Why is this? Why do I separate myself from you when I know that you are the only true source of peace for my soul?
You call to me, and I hear your voice, in my innermost soul I hear your voice speaking my name, and you say; “Come my child, walk with me for awhile.” And I turn my back, and walk away, alone.
I hear your blessed voice as you say, “Sit with me my child; please, let us sit in peace, for I want you to know me.” And I walk away to do some thing… something, more important.
I hear your voice calling to me, “Come my child, learn of me; learn of my great love for you.” And I turn my back, ignoring your supplication, and go my own way, in ignorance.
Why is it O God, that I yearn for you on one hand, and yet flee from you on the other, Why, O God do I do this?
Why O God, when I know in my innermost being, that you are my only hope; why do I choose to be alone?
Please O God, I don’t want to be alone. I don’t want to walk this thorny, rocky path on my own. I cannot do this on my own, for if I do, I will perish. Please, walk with me, be my guide.
Talk to me, guide me, dwell with me, and in me. Speak to my heart, speak to my heart O Holy God, let me hear your voice speaking my name.
I know that you love me with an undying love, a love beyond words, a love beyond description, a love indescribable.
Please God, help me to love you, to yearn for you, to desire you, beyond my imagination.
I know that you yearn for my trust. I know that you are my only hope, my refuge, my all in all. Take me now. Accept my humble worship, for it is all I know how to give. Thank you, Daddy, thank you O God, thank you.
Accept me in my failed, weak condition now, starting today, transform me into the creature you have designed me to be.
This is my prayer O God, this is my supplication, for it is my greatest desire,
O holy God, please, beginning today, disregarding all that is past, draw me to you.
Please, be my constant companion; that I may be like Jesus.
I love you father. Let your love overwhelm me. Submerge me in your perfect love. Drown me in your holy love. Let your love become my character.
I pray this, knowing full well that you will not withhold any good thing from one of your children.
In Jesus perfect and Holy name I ask it, Amen.
Charles Towne is first and foremost a Christian. An octogenarian, author, journalist, wildlife photographer, naturalist, caregiver, and survivor, his life has been and continues to be, a never-ending adventure filled with possibilities never imagined. He has adopted the philosophy that to Live fully, laugh uproariously, love passionately, and learn like there is no tomorrow, is a formula for a long and joy-filled life.