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Oh God, how your heart must break

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By Charles Towne

God, heavenly Father, I miss my wife so very much.

This sweet, delightful, precious, confused wife of mine. I miss her. Recently I placed her in a nursing home. Alzheimer’s disease is such a frustrating and heartbreaking illness. I speak from fifteen years of experience when I say there is invariably at least two victims, the patient, and the caregiver.

Families have often torn apart, lives distorted, loved ones confused, fearful, angry, wondering. My darling wife is still there. I see her in flashes, glimpses of my sweetie. I hear her laughter; her love is evident. I overheard Nanny talking to a nurse the other day, she was in the process of telling her what a wonderful husband I am. And yet, I don’t feel very wonderful having placed her in the nursing home even though I know it is the best thing I could have done, for her, as well as myself.

I have suffered three heart attack due to the ongoing stress of caregiving, and yet I am fortunate. Two friends have suffered fatal heart attacks because they couldn’t bring themselves to place their spouses in nursing homes. To some this might be considered faithful, loyal, but, if my friends were still alive they would be able to visit their spouses in the nursing home, but. as it is, their dear ones will live out their lives alone. Yes, I love my wife. Did I make the right decision by placing her in a nursing home? Absolutely! Do I miss my sweetie? Darn tooting and I go visit her as often as possible

Please, my friend, cherish the time you have together with your spouse. Love one another, make the best of the time you have together, and remember, Papa God love you with an undying love. He misses us so much when we are not close to Him His heart must break.

Live fully,

Love openly

Trust God, and make a difference. Today.

 

Charles Towne is first and foremost a Christian. An octogenarian, author, journalist, wildlife photographer, naturalist, caregiver, and survivor, his life has been, and continues to be, a never-ending adventure filled with possibilities never imagined. He has adapted the philosophy that to Live fully, laugh uproariously, love passionately, and learn like there is no tomorrow, is a formula for a long and joy filled life.

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